I woke in the night, remembering my dream, and then while thinking of any meaning of my dream, these thoughts rose up in my mind. The thoughts came bit by bit. I will work to capture them to share with you. First you may think it is important to know what the dream was of, but it was just the starter- the messenger, to get my mind open, seeking for the message, the meaning. The meaning was a feeling, a seeking also. That inside I seem to be like a little hurt child looking for a loving parent to help me heal, a father or mother to kiss the hurt to help me feel better, and so ready me to go play some more, ( a child's play is its work) experiencing life and learning from it, finding joy which comes from learning finding my talents and improving them, and the best joy comes using the talents in sharing and loving (serving) others so at the end of the day (life on earth) I can return home to rest and be made ready for another day of further work as I grow up to become like my parents. So, are we not all children? Children of Our Heavenly Father? Are we not all sent to Earth as like a boarding school, where we are to learn (play) and from where we all will return at the end of life to our home in heaven, where either we will be pleased to share our “report card” which will be our hearts, hopefully grown large with caring with sharing and service like our Heavenly Parents? though we will all have some areas (classes, subjects) that we need improvement in Yet as long as we have an open loving, learning, seeking heart, Not a proud hard greedy heart, We will be (have already been) forgiven, and our Parents stand with open arms, always watching us (from afar) like the beloved children we are on the play ground of life, needing to be free to skin our knees climb the trees pick the flowers or let them grow learning as we go. Maybe you don't know you are a child of God? Maybe you feel lost maybe you have sought for some meaning in life but (so far) have not found meaning? That would not mean there is no meaning, just that you hadn't found it yet, The meaning of life has been there all the time, Its pattern is in all the world around us, in the life around us, even in the plants and air. Do animals come to be without predecessors (parents)? Do plants come to be without being the seed of another plant? Is the world (playgournd) not provided for our needs? Here is air, sunshine, food grows like a miracle from the earth and not child can arrive without having a male and female predecessors, Loving parents to be examples of the heavenly ones whose calling is to nurture, provide and protect the baby. You didn't have that? Do you know why? Does it mean that God is cruel? Or there is no God? May I suggest That any God who could create the playground (world>universe>”all things that in them are” would have reasons, and those can be found? I will share what has been given me, what I believe is from God (all good things are from God and God can turn ALL things to our good as we seek to love (obey) Him. We learn best by our own experiences Though we can learn some from others And having guidance (rules) for safety on the playground (life) helps us be happier Have you not heard of rules for life? I understand that in most every religion there is a list similar to the 10 Commandments. These are to help us, and I believe came from God. I believe God has been working to keep sending just enough direction, that for those who ARE seeking will find it, While some will be raised in a home where they are taught Some do not arrive in a prepared “nursery” Some are even born missing their fathers or being given into the waiting arms of some who are not their biological mothers Yet God set the pattern (and rules) for the best homes. Our playgournd time (life at boarding school) is usually long enough for us to become parents, and learn from that yet the BEST parents are those who first become Spouses, married/committed to be together to love and support each other and any children they may be blessed with. Our Heavenly Parents watch over us, but let us make mistakes and even BIG mistakes knowing that their forgiveness is there, and we can (if we choose) grow from/through our mistakes But what about children born to a less than perfect home? How can that possibly fair? Especially how can it be fair to an aborted baby? My answer is a question for you. Have you ever waited your turn to get off the bus, or to get your “auto” in Autotopia at Disneyland? If your friends were already off and there were no Perfect cars left (returned yet) for you to enter/use, would you stay on the bus, waiting for a practically perfect car, or would you take one (maybe out of several- less perfect) that would still allow you to go forward, with your friends and be that much farther along on the road/path (in learnings/growth) knowing that later, it will be worth it, for with every vehicle (body/life) there are compensations, (often unseen in the “day”= of this life) and if you stay on the path, obey the laws (of heaven) you know, you will receive perfect peace, joy and happiness even more than you experience here, when you share with an open heart.. ``````I also testify, that I believe de-ja-vu experiences, are quick recall, where we were shown before we choose which “vehicle” to accept what our lives would be like in the bodies/vehicles we were offered, and that our Heavenly Parents knew that we could learn enough with the challenges presented BY our situations/life/family to merit the highest level of happiness/reward after our schooling. We are not in ANY competition with any other human being, We are not judged on the curve – we are judged against our selves, We are judged only by what light and knowledge we have available but we ARE to seek for more, and our judge is our oldest brother, who also came to earth as mortal, suffered temptations himself, then took on himself, all OURS too including our pains, griefs, sickness and sins (anything that separates us from God) We are judged by the intents of our hearts with our actions (works) AGAIN- against what true rules/teachings we had given us, or were available. I know that we are to work to be perfect, Yet not be discouraged as in this life we can not be but each little improvement is progress, and we can continue to improve after this life, but it is much easier to do in this life. What I have shared I have learned while a member of The Church of JESUS CHRIST of Latter-day Saints which I believe is the brought back to earth organization Jesus Christ himself set up during his life on earth (though knowing it would be corrupted) and that He promised (in the KJV Bible) it would be returned by an angel (Revelations 14:6) in the latter-days. It is nearing the time of the Second Coming of Jesus Christ. If you are seeking the purpose (your personal purpose) in life, I pray you will earnestly investigate the restored from heaven gospel! You can go on line to LDS.org or Mormon.org or have missionaries come to your home. These teachings have helped me have more peace in my life, though my own birth has left me suffering many hurdles, I'm so very blessed that my family were valient LDS members who taught me as a child, so that this hope/belief has helped me endure and keep progressing, I'm afraid, that if I hadn't had these teachings to bring me peace and hope, that I might have sought to “ditch” (suicide) :( I'm thankful that other truths in the world have been second witnesses that suicide is NOT the/any good answer to pain in this life. My study of Near Death Experiences has shown me that those who tried to opt out by ending their lives, testify that it will NOT help, it will be worse, as they saw what happened to those who “succeeded”, and it will not help! Pray, and seek here!